I was asked this morning by a viewer not familiar with our concept how this all started....
What does posess a person to turn their life into a reality series?
In the fall of 2005 I was employed as an office manager for a prestigious Financial District firm. I left the house at 7 o'clock every morning, and returned at 7 o'clock every night. I spent my day inside a building doing my job, with other people doing their jobs. One day I was in the kitchen making myself tea, when a coworker saw me cutting lemons on the counter. He asked me what I was doing, then answered himself "Oh! Look at you! You're living!". You see, in office buildings water comes in bottles, and tea doesn't have lemon.
It was then I realized that the walls that I travelled to everyday religiously, were not the walls for me.
In March of 2006 I heard an ad on Mix999 announcing a contest. To win a guaranteed audition spot on Rockstar Supernova, all I had to do was submit a demo tape. THIS was my big shot at stardom. (To be clear, I have never aspired to be a rockstar (singer). MY dream has always been to walk the red carpet at the Oscars.) I enlisted the help of a friend who had access to a recording studio and mixing equipment to help me cut my demo.
One night after work, I walked from my office to the studio to seize what I felt was MY moment in time. I remember the long walk down Queen street, and the sun shining in my eyes as it set in the west. We worked for three hours, and ran the video camera for good measure. I remember being so EXTREMELY camera shy back then, I had to be coerced into performing for it. (for the post written at the time click here )
A few days after our session, I got the audio tracks to listen to, and was smacked in the face with the realization that I was a TERRIBLE singer. Completely off key, so off, I couldn't even listen to ANY of the tracks for more than a second before wanting the earth to swallow me.
A few days after that, I saw a rough cut of the video... and fell in love with the sight of my own reflection. Not a narcissistic love, but a love that sees everything, and accepts it. It dawned on me that turning a 33 year old office manager mother of four who can't sing into a rockstar was a pretty good storyline. In contrast to the overproduced Idol and Reality shows, our show would show something fresh.
I had no idea what a bucket of cold water it would be, for me, and for many of the people who have shared my journey along the way. When we released our first season, in Los Angeles no less, we had a handful of people working on the show and spreading the word. We managed to grow that with the production and release of Season II to a loyal following of 2000 unique viewers, and thanks to the internet, we have a steady audience in Seychelles.
Then our site went down.
We are now ramping up for a third season. I won't say I'm not scared, cause Anterockstar for me has been much like setting off a bomb, I light the fuse, and duck.
Then I remind myself that not only have I survived to see this point, a great many people have joined me along the way, and helped. We thought the storyline would be over in 6 months. It's now been 10 years, and I've lost count of the size of our audience...
But I can sing.